So, I totally dropped the ball on Project 365 this month. As you can imagine, I was mad at myself and went through all the feelings of failure and embarrassment. Scrambling to remedy the matter resulted in an idea to take a bunch of photos for the missing days so I would be back on track but that only fueled the self-imposed stress about it. Pretty silly huh?
Anyway, I woke up this morning and thought “fuck it”. Who cares if I missed a few days? Do you? I’m going to guess no. The only person that cares is me and only because I choose to. Well, not anymore. I’m going to look at those photo-less days as a representation of where I was at the time – kinda lost, confused and disoriented. My personal intention of Project 365 is to capture my life on that particular day, so those blank spaces represent those days better than any photo could.
I guess in some ways, this post really isn’t about Project 365, but more about learning to give myself a break. Sometimes we are so goddamn hard on ourselves and at the end of the day it is completely unwarranted. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again… sometimes, when you look hard enough, you’ll actually see perfection in your imperfections and that can be a beautiful thing. Embrace it, don’t let it put you at a stand-still and just keep moving.
I love your blog and I just wanted to tell you that! I love the photographs and the colors you get in them. Do you just adjust your photos using photoshop?
Kristina
I’m extremely self-conscious about a decision I made recently because it could be seen that I did it to avoid having to get a full-time job. (which is partly true) I beat myself up a lot about it even though I know I’m happier than if I had a full-time job. Definitely my own worst critic. I do the same with the jewelry and things that I make. It’s hard to take that step back and breathe and let little things go. But I’m trying.
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Amen Sister!!!! ( i like that you emoted some real “fuck you power” and that you said it!) Do what you can…you only live once and don't waste time on regrets and what you can't change.
Wanna take and post photos..then do it. Don't?? Maybe tomorrow.
my husband tells me all the time, “You are your own worst critic!” so true. btw. i have my bright red low tops on today. how fitting :)
Well said (written)!! Its so true, we can be so hard on ourselves when we make plans or set goals but don't attain them and you're correct, oftentimes we are the only ones making us feel bad about it. Good for you for working towards living in the present, not dwelling on what you should have or could have, just doing what you can right now. I'm sure trying to work on that myself this year! Love reading your blog….xoxo